I have probably written, edited, and completely re-written this post at least 50 times (and I wish that was an exaggeration). For the past year, I have been wanting to start this blog as a way to get my thoughts down in the hopes of connecting with someone else dealing with similar emotions or feelings. For the past year, this blog has been unpublished, with loads of content saved as drafts due to fear of what others might think.
Think about the last time you were fearful of something. Truly fearful. Isn’t it crazy how fear can be a debilitating emotion that has the ability to control almost every aspect of your life? For example, you walk into a room and instantly become aware of your surroundings. Your heart starts beating fast and your palms start to sweat as you begin to think “Are they talking about me?” “Have I done something wrong?” “Am I good enough?”
We’ve all been there a time or two, but that doesn’t make us any less of a human. It makes us just that—HUMAN! Now, if you can’t relate to the above scenario, I’m sorry—I may be experiencing more fear than the average person (hellooo, my enneagram 6s!!), but I’m learning to work through it.
While fear is ultimately the enemy, it can also be the subtle nudge we need. I recently had the pleasure of hearing Christy Wright, from the Ramsey Solutions team, speak at the SMART Conference in Dallas, Texas. She spoke truth over us as she shared her experience and wisdom in pushing past fear. She gave one piece of advice that has really stuck with me—Fear is a normal part of the journey and usually indicates you’re doing something bold. Don’t wait until you’re not scared to do the thing you want to do, do it scared.
While I fully recognize fear will creep up no matter what, I’m choosing to embrace it. Acknowledge the fear, but do not welcome it to stay. When you choose to set your sights on your passion, and let that be your guiding force, the fear subsides. When you have laser focus, you cannot be bothered by fear.
So, here’s my first step in taking my own advice—publishing a blog post for the world to read for the very first time. If you’ve made it this far, I commend and thank you. I can’t promise you that future posts will not be as riddled with fear as this one, but I can promise you that they will be vulnerable, raw and oozing with thought-provoking topics that I hope will evolve into connection.